The Phoenix Rises

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YOU FLIPPED THAT SWITCH

I was so dead insideNo chance of hope

I was just along for the ride

Trying to hide being a big mope
Your smile lifted me up

Your laugh was so contagious

I drank from your cup

And it’s just so outrageous
With a flip of switch

You changed me

And my attitude

My life has gotten so rich

I can finally see

It’s a whole new pitch

Since you flipped that switch

Now I’m in love

Since you flipped that switch

I’m outta that ditch

Since you flipped that switch
For so long I felt so lost

Just taking up space

I felt I had no worth and no cause

Turns out all I needed was your friendly face
You let me into your life

And showed me another world

You spun me around and took out the knife

The thoughts in my head swirled
With a flip of a switch

You changed me

And my attitude

My life has gotten so rich

I can finally see

It’s a whole new pitch

Since you flipped that switch

Now I’m in love

Since you flipped that switch

I’m outta that ditch

Since you flipped that switch
I look into your eyes

I can get so happily lost

No more alibis

Your sun has melted my frost

With the flip of switch
With a flip of switch

You changed me

And my attitude

My life has gotten so rich

I can finally see

It’s a whole new pitch

Since you flipped that switch

Now I’m in love

Since you flipped that switch

I’m outta that ditch

Since you flipped that switch
I cannot stop smiling 

Seeing the beauty in everything

Your love is all I’m dialing

You can hear my heart singing
With a flip of switch

You changed me

And my attitude

My life has gotten so rich

I can finally see

It’s a whole new pitch

Since you flipped that switch

Now I’m in love

Since you flipped that switch

I’m outta that ditch

Since you flipped that switch
It’s electric

Since you flipped that switch

I feel the electricity

Since you flipped that switch

Inside of me

Since you flipped that switch
With a flip of switch

You changed me

And my attitude

My life has gotten so rich

I can finally see

It’s a whole new pitch

Since you flipped that switch

Now I’m in love

Since you flipped that switch

I’m outta that ditch

Since you flipped that switch
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SOME DAYS

I was getting tiredI had a lack of sleep

Trying to climb the mountain slope

But the path was too steep
I promised her

I’d meet her at the top

There were many obstacles 

There was no way I could stop
I promised her

I’d be there by sunset

Keeping a promise to her

Is never a regret
It took too long

The sun had gone down

In my mind I feared

I would see her tears and frown
I got to the summit

I couldn’t see anything

It was pitch black

No spoils for a king
Some days you think

You’re better off dead

If it didn’t take so much fucking work

So you just lay in bed

And cry like some fucking jerk
She wasn’t there anymore

Didn’t even leave a note

It was getting so cold waiting

I didn’t think to bring a coat
I could hear my heartbeat echo

As I planted my broken promises in the ground

I buried them deep

Because I didn’t want them found
I sighed and then began

My long and lonely decent 

As my mind wandered

At how much my love for her meant
Some days you think

Of the all the little things

That meant nothing in your life

And how inconsequential they are

And yet they hurt your feelings
I slid in the mud down the slope

So I started to roam

Through the dark woods

Till I got down and started my long walk home
I missed the sun rise

As I continued on with my hike

I wish she waited for me

As I reached in my heart and pulled out the spike
Some days you think

What is it all you do it for?

You take your beatings

Time and time again

And still you want more
Some days you think

Some days you think

The day will never end

And some days you think

You got more time to lend

COPYRIGHT 2017. FLEMMING ERIK CARLSON. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.


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BIRTH OF THE PHOENIX

I was born under the sign of AumI was built from the same mettle as the blade of the sword of Odin

And I was under the careful Eye of Horus

And when I thought the flames had all but consumed me

And taken me right to my bones

And into my soul

Something changed

Changed deep inside of me

And lifted me up

Up out of the ashes

A burning flight across the sky

To a higher elevation

To a better position

To a better view

I was reborn

I was new

I was

And I am

I am whole

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EYE OF THE STORM

Down by the seaWashed up on the shore

Driftwood rests

In a slumbered state

That the storm didn’t want anymore
Polished by the waves and the rocks

Bleached clean by the salt and the sun

It had made its way across one end

Of the large ocean

To another end
Disappearing for a time

Till the storm was done
And made it back to land
The rains hit the desert

Leaving the cactus to drown

Turning it soft and brown

Until the sun came back

And dried up all the sand

Leaving the cactus to flower

And enjoy the land
But I never spoke

Never uttered a word

When you and I grew stronger

Coming out

From the eye of the storm
We held each other close

Stood tall in resolve

Never wavered in the winds
But when it was over

I don’t know why

We just moved on
Did you make it

To New York?

Did you see the skyscrapers?

And eat Chinese food?
I made it to the end

To see the sun set

I finally smiled

When I saw the palm trees

That lined my view
But I couldn’t help think

Where I’d had been

Without you

And getting stronger again
After arriving

Out of the eye of the storm.

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THE DAY IS DONE

THE DAY IS DONE
It seems that sunset has come

I just wish

It came at a better time

My day just isn’t done
My list

Is just too fucking long

How can I ever do it all?

The time must be wrong
I wish

I had done things differently 

How would I know

That time would follow me so closely?
Did I take on more

Than I could chew?

Did I take too long

To smell all the roses?
Did I not give enough

Love to you?

This is my life

The questions that life poses 
Today is done
Maybe I could have been a banker

A lawyer

A doctor 

A movie star

A pastor

A hero

A savior

Or a humble baker

Making you tasty treats

Oh, life can be so sweet

Just kicking cans

And not having

Any plans
I wish

I could feed the hungry

Save the animals

End the wars

Open closed doors

Help the blind see
Just hold me

Just hold me
One more time

One more time
As this day is done.
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MAGENTA HEART

Twenty years agoI met her, not far from the beach

I’d never recognize her now

I hear her hair is colored in bleach
She painted me a picture

On an old white canvas

Of her heart

After some time together

Had passed
It was painted in oil

With a TV on in the background

She labored night after night

Very focused, she toiled away
It wasn’t red

It wasn’t quite purple

Outlined in black

It was magenta

And when she finished

She finally went to bed
The next morning she handed it to me

And as a fellow artist

I looked at it with respect

She wiped the brow of her lip

And said, “It’s anatomically correct”
She gave it to me that day

And said it was her heart

I didn’t know what to say

She put her thoughts, dreams, hopes, and fears into her art.
Her magenta heart

Still hangs on my wall

Sipping my coffee 

I’m still waiting for her to call
Life against her

Placing it’s bets

15 years of memories

I still have no regrets
Despite all the sadness

I wish I could quit

These goddamn cigarettes
It tears me apart

That all that I’ve got

Is her magenta heart
Like her life

Her paintings soon faded

Her eyes changed from bright colors

Like someone who is jaded
But I still hold that painting on my wall

Years and years later

And look at it every night

From spring until fall
Dressed in my flannel pajamas 

All cozy and comfortable 

Before the next storm

Her heart looms over me

To keep me warm
I don’t know what the girl

With the magenta heart

Is doing today

But if I could know

I’d like to hear she’s okay
Her magenta heart

Still hangs on my wall

Sipping my coffee 

I’m still waiting for her to call
I wonder if she ever

Wanted it back

15 years of memories

And feelings I never lack
Despite all the sadness

I wish I could quit

These goddamn cigarettes
It tears me apart

That all that I’ve got

Is her magenta heart
But for me that’s got to be

good enough

For me that’s got to be

good enough
A magenta heart

is good enough

It’s got to be

good enough

The only picture I’ve got

Is her magenta heart

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IF

If I could go homeBack to my mother

And help her in the yard

With her garden

I would
If I cared enough

And really cared

About myself

I’d do all of the things

That I really should
If I dropped my sword

And my shield

I’d stop this battle

That haunts me

And move on
And if I could have

Kept you

And given you

All the happiness in the world

You wouldn’t have gone
If

If is such a bad word

It looks back in time

And it sounds so absurd
If doesn’t mean anything

Although it gives you

Something

To hope for

When you just don’t anymore
If

If there was an if

I wouldn’t be here
Now
If I was a plane

I would soar high

Above the skies

With the wind

Whipping against my eyes
If I could fix

All that I have broke

If you believed 

In anything

I could have spoke
If you were here

Now

I would have fallen 

In your arms

But it’s only a dream of mine
If

If is such a bad word

It looks back in time

And it sounds so absurd
If doesn’t mean anything

Although it gives you

Something

To hope for

When you just don’t anymore
If

If there was an if

I wouldn’t be here
Now
If

But it’s only a dream

Of mine now
Of mine
Now
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