The Phoenix Rises

A PEACE Of My Mind!

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She left her wings

And left me just standing here

What was I to do

Now that she was gone?

She left her wings neatly draped over the kitchen chair

Did she not think that I wouldn’t notice or that I wouldn’t care?

How would she fly high, how would she soar?

I feel so empty now without her

I don’t think I have anymore

What can I do?

I feel so hollow and empty

How do I walk through this opaque fog?

She left her wings hanging

I don’t think they were ever used

I don’t like seeing that she left them behind

But I always seem to notice them

Out of the corner of my eye

I stood by the kitchen sink

Washing my hands

And started to think

Why did she leave her wings behind?

How could she fly?

Why, why, why?

Like the wings of a dove, carrying a message of peace from above

Or like the wings of a nightingale, with a breath of compassion, like the wind on a sail

As long as there’s love

There’ll always be hope

She was the kindest, most loyal, most compassionate, the happiest, most caring, most loving, most honest, and giving, and sharing of anyone I ever knew

Then I heard a voice that sounded like hers

And I stared at the empty chair

With her wings that were still there

And my body suddenly felt lighter than feathers

And she said, “You know. You do.”

And I didn’t. And she said, “You do. You know all that is true. I give and I share, and I think of you, too. I left those wings for you.”

And the tears rolled down my eyes.

And I looked over again at the wings she had left. Wondering.



If they were my size.

When the Angels are in heaven

And of all the great things

That they may have

They pass down a set of wings

To anyone they might feel

That needs to lift themselves up

And fly and soar

Open your eyes

There’s wings everywhere

A chance, a blessing, an opportunity, an open door

At the best of times

At the worst of times


Look up



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My Advice For Today

Life is an adventure.So go have one if you’re not already.

Go out, meet new people, talk to them, see places, smile, laugh, love, for life is short.

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A Lesson From My Mother

When I was about five years old, my mother shopped at a little flower and gift shop off the Old Post Road in Connecticut. And she would take me places when she went shopping. And this was a place I liked. It was cool to a five year old like me. It had a fountain and a pond, and flowers and interesting chotchke stuff inside the shop. But to me, the coolest thing was this Indian totem pole. I was fascinated with it. I loved to always go to this shop and see the totem pole by the pond. I could stare at it forever.One day my mother was buying something at the counter from the owner. She leans down to me and whispers, “Ask the man, how much for the totem pole.”

Now I was a very shy kid, and a bit of a loner, and my mother was always trying to break me of that by speaking up, minding my manners, to always say please and thank you. This was scary to me.

But I asked as she kept prodding me.

The man said, “No, I’m sorry it’s not for sale.”

End of discussion for me. I was disappointed after having to build up the courage to talk to this man. A waste of time, I must have been thinking at five years old.

My mother kicked me gently with her foot. I looked up at her.

“Ask him if he’ll take $5 dollars for it.”, she whispered.

Man! She’s going to make me talk to him again? He said it wasn’t for sale. My mom is so pushy, I must have thought.

“Go on.”, she kicked me again.


“Would you take $5 dollars for the totem pole?”, I asked.

“Hmn. Nah. I’m not selling that totem pole. It’s very nice, and means a lot.”, he said.

Crushed twice. What kind of mean and cruel, sadistic mother did I have?

She poked me with her finger.

“Ask if you can have it for $10 dollars, would he sell it?”

Crap. Mom, he said no! Please.

“Ask, Flemming. Wouldn’t you like to have the totem pole?”

I stared silently. 

She said, “Go on.”

I reluctantly asked him if he’d take $10 dollars for it.

“Hmn. That’s a really good offer. But it’s really not for sale.”

Done. Okay, mom. We’re done.

The man looked down over the counter at me.

“Like I said, it’s not for sale. But you can have it. It means more to you than me.”, he said.

What did he just say?

“You can have it. I know you really like it.”

“It’s your totem pole, Flemming.”, my mother said.

 I was shocked. I was stunned. I was happy.

My mother and I took that little three foot totem pole back to the car.

My mother explained some things to my little five year old brain in that car going back home.

It was something to the effect of this: “Flemming, I don’t want you to be shy. I want you to assert yourself. You will never know what anybody thinks or will say if you don’t ask. And ask politely. The worst thing anybody could ever say is no. And you won’t know, if you don’t ask. Do you understand?”

Yes I do. And I never forgot that lesson my mother gave me.

And to remind myself of that lesson she taught me, I never parted with that little totem pole. I keep it as a reminder.



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I Got This

Shore up the damThere’s a flood coming today

There’s too much rain

But it’s gonna be okay
The clouds are gonna break

They’ll lift and blow away

Hang on for goodness sake

We can make it through today
I got this

I’ll take control

I got this

Baby, I’m on a roll

I got this
We’ll get in my car

Pack it to the top

We don’t have to go to far

This years gonna have a good crop
We’ll just have to learn a little patience

The universe revolves and provides

It’s the nature of happenstance

One thing grows when another subsides
I got this

I’ve been expecting this

I got this

Baby, this is one thing we won’t miss

I got this
But you and me will take our time and wait

For the storm to clear

Before we ascend to the mountain top, we won’t be late

We will arrive at just the right time my dear

You can’t prepare and plan for fate
Opportunities are abound

Trust me, I know

We just have to look at ourselves to see what we have found

It’s all around, look high, look low
I got this

Our time has come

I got this

You can’t look past the sun

I got this
We’ve waited for this moment

Happiness is free deep within us

It can’t be bought, it’s not for rent

A journey for you and me

And us
Together there is us

We can do this together
I got this

I can handle it from here

I got this

Baby, our time to shine is near

I got this
I got this
I got this